I am writing this to show the truth what I had experienced in first few years since I came into Vlog World. Before I say further, I saw Barry's Last Vlog called Deaf Trash. He mentioned about white, native america, and black trash. I stand and disagree with his perspective. I do not think any classes are trash. They are here for the purpose for greater good. Life is full of the mystery. Additional, Barry called some deaf people are trash. I do not agree with his opinion. I traveled to poorest country and went into trash place where people live. They had to live there because no hope, no help, and full of pain. They stick together to survive. They were neglected. It made me cry and wanted help them but I can't because of danger. Everyone is not trash regardless if they come from low, middle, high class. They are every human being and had different experience and they are here for the purpose. Everyone has a soul and have feelings. Black, Asian, Latin, White gangs, etc... They do have soul, too. Never call anyone trash. Trash is a garbage as worthless. It help others to be hopeless and worthless that is negative. People need a uplifting and hope. One person need look at his own mirror and see what he is trying to do? Does he want bring positive message to others? That something every person need to consider before they address the message. Everyone is worth living being. The Deaf Community need healing and uplifting instead being looked down. Healing help people to stand up and march to fight against people who had done crime against to cause a lot of pain for years. Accepting who I am as deaf person as a whole person is a healing process.
Now back to point about Vlog World, I had learned so many things from great and bad vlogs. I had experienced hiding and coming back here. Healing process was a long but it was worth it. Now I am here and enjoying my life now. I am in process to walk up and climb the ladder up to be success. I had to be healed before I go up. I am glad that I had experienced bad and goods in vlog world. It taught me so many things. I made mistakes, too that makes me human being. I was ashamed of myself for long time that landed me into hiding. Now I am not longer to be ashamed and forgave myself. I hope who people were hurt by my mistakes find their own heart to forgive me, too. It is up to them.
Unfortunately, I used to be the fan of Barry long time ago when I was new to Vlog World. Now I am baffled that aslitself show the truth recently. I want say that I am appreciated for him showing the truth. Barry is not only one who likes to threaten others. I ran Visual Vlogs website long time ago. I had a wonderful and horrible experience with it. I learned many lessons from it. Ridor9th expressed his thoughts about one person (I won't use his real name for safety purpose). I did not see anything wrong it until I recieved email from him with threats of the lawsuit by saying he will get me in court with attorney and demanded me to removed ridor9th's vlog. He said He has cops at his place. I did not want remove his vlog that will not meet my goal for VV to be free to express the thoughts. So, I offered him to accept me to change one word on topic. He accepted my offer. I wish I had not done it in past. Now, I had looked around and told myself wow, "Barry's behavior is similar to that I had encountered with in past." Now I understand people's pain better. Now I look at DVTV and DeafRead. Do they allow people who behave like that to be around and part of the community. Do we have to live in fear and be too extreme cautious what we say without getting in trouble. It is not the place I want to be part of it. I rather to be myself and be free. I want peace and full of love. So, I am not coming back to DVTV and DeafRead community for good. I would like to have my accounts in there to be removed. Farewell DVTV and DeafRead and Say hello to DSN (Deaf Spiritual Network) where that I can enjoy and share my experience freely; plus, I am feeling full of love in there. I really enjoy hang out in there for couple months now. Also I want say Hello to other deaf websites who share the freedom that DSN have, too.
I would like to share what I had learned and experience with new group that has full of nurture to grow spirituality such as increase happiness, peaceful, harmony, relaxation, and better healthy life. It is called deaf spiritual network. I learned a lot from awesome people in there. I would like to share some wisdom tips to help people,
Learn to reduce negative thoughts, actions, and react negatively by thinking positively such as loving the self and embrace and overcome obstacles with love. For instance, I say oh no, I am going to have bad day. It is negative thought, replace that statement into I have best day now. Another example, I have so much pain in my stomach. Replace negative statement into this positive statement. I am going to nurture my stomach and heal it and know it is well. Another about thinking positive is love yourself as you love others. Think yourself as beautiful, handsome, good person... Do not absorb people's negative statement toward you. Only absorbs positive statements from people about you.
It is most difficult task I had to do is staying away from negative people, dogma ideas, and negative environment. I know it is essential to do that task to complete to have the harmony of the life. So, I chose to never return to vlog world because I know it is the place where infect negative energy that affected me real bad and moved on other path. I am on way to more artistic and spiritual path now. I am much happier on new path now. I will see more achievements as I stay that path. I reduced spend time with people who do not bring positive experience with me and start socialize with people who help to nourish the happiness. If people want stay away those kind negative experience, they need to analyze is environment positive or negative, positive or negative people, and is it too dogma or diversity of the ideas? That analyzed will help one person to make a decision to leave or stay in specific place or situation and stop or continue staying in contact with person. Also set boundaries to people who you cannot stay away from such as workplace and family.
So, I will spend time more on my art blog (www.silentmysts.com) than here. I will post occasionally here when I have something to say that might interest people. I will not make any heavily negative posts again but old posts will remain here to remember. I will make is challenging, non dogma ideas, and exciting posts.